The blog groove, that is. I've been reading blogs again, and it's so nice to catch up with all of my BOOBS. I was going through the list in my dashboard when all of a sudden, I realized that I needed to do more than read, I needed to write. So here I am, at 4:23am.
I think I'm slowly coming out of my funk, now if I could just get my stupid sleep schedule fixed! I'm at my mom's for the night, and I actually did try to go to bed at a decent time (remember, I'm not working at the moment, so yes I considered 2:30 decent). However, since my sleep schedule is all screwy, I could not fall asleep (my body is not timed to do that until it's daylight out). Since I sleep in my mom's room with her when I'm here, I can't lull myself to sleep with P.ink F.loyd like I normally do...so I gave up and am sitting at the kitchen table surfing the web. Sigh.
I do have a decently long to-do list for tomorrow, so I'll sign off in a few and try again - just felt like checking in and saying hello.
One last thing - the fabulous Catherine and I have been talking about another NYC brunch in January. We were looking at Saturday, January 21st. All are welcome, both peeps from NYC and those who aren't but want to make the trek and join us! Shoot me an email (in the sidebar) or leave a comment if you're interested :)
My Progress So Far!
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Friday, December 9, 2011
Where Have I Been?!
Yikes. My last blog was October 13. What the hell, Liz?! I'm pretty sure I have actually been in denial that I even have a lap band for the last 2 months, based on how I've been eating and the scale. I know it's there though - it likes to remind me fairly often. Fun.
Anyhoo. I'll have to go back and read my last few blogs to see what was going on right before I went *poof*, but based on the date, it's right before a pretty major bout of depression hit me. I can't remember if I shared this or not, but earlier in the year, I decided to preventatively go on anti-depressants. I was feeling okay about everything that had happened with my dad, but thought they couldn't hurt. Well, with all of the traveling I did in September and October, I got wayyy off schedule, and basically just stopped taking all of my meds. Without the lovely cushion they were providing, along with some other stuff that's been going on, things got pretty dark. When I get depressed, I do a total retreat. I don't leave my house, I don't go to work, I don't talk to anyone, etc. I'm happy to say that I've been back on my meds for well over a month now, and there's a huge difference. Whew!
So let's see - what can I update you all on?
Weight - crappy here. I never made it to my appt with Dr K back in October, and haven't scheduled one since. Which means no fill since Sept. And I'm home all day now (more on that later), so I get bored and snacky. Right now I'm hovering about 7 lbs over my lowest (224.6). Yesterday's weight was 231.8....sigh. I'm going to call today and see if I can get in to see Dr. K sometime next week. I STILL have not started yoga - but now that I have more time, I am just waiting until I can get in for a first timer's class (the location near me only does them on Sunday right now which hasn't worked for me).
Work - my position got eliminated AGAIN. My last day was about 3 weeks ago - Nov 17. I still get paid until mid-January, and have until the end of this month to apply for new positions, but it's not looking good. There have been very few positions in NY, and since I live in Manhattan and don't have a car, I'm kind of limited to the city office. The suburban ones are difficult to get to, and it would have to be a big pay increase to justify getting a car. Soo, that's kind of stressful. I do have some time, and I'm planning as if I won't find something with my current company, but it's not fun.
For the second time in 2 weeks, I woke up to sad news via Facebook. Last week, a comedian who I've known for as long as I've worked at the club, which is a VERY long time, passed away. He was pretty well known, and had been ill for a few weeks, but it's so sad. Last night, a member of a band that I spent quite a bit of time with passed away. I'm still not sure what happened, and the band hasn't been together for several years, but it's still so sad. Just more evidence to support my theory that 2011 sucks.
OK, I'm going to do my best to catch up on what blogs I can. Since I've been MIA for almost 2 months, I'm not sure I'll be able to do that. But I do promise to be a better blogger! <3 to all.
Anyhoo. I'll have to go back and read my last few blogs to see what was going on right before I went *poof*, but based on the date, it's right before a pretty major bout of depression hit me. I can't remember if I shared this or not, but earlier in the year, I decided to preventatively go on anti-depressants. I was feeling okay about everything that had happened with my dad, but thought they couldn't hurt. Well, with all of the traveling I did in September and October, I got wayyy off schedule, and basically just stopped taking all of my meds. Without the lovely cushion they were providing, along with some other stuff that's been going on, things got pretty dark. When I get depressed, I do a total retreat. I don't leave my house, I don't go to work, I don't talk to anyone, etc. I'm happy to say that I've been back on my meds for well over a month now, and there's a huge difference. Whew!
So let's see - what can I update you all on?
Weight - crappy here. I never made it to my appt with Dr K back in October, and haven't scheduled one since. Which means no fill since Sept. And I'm home all day now (more on that later), so I get bored and snacky. Right now I'm hovering about 7 lbs over my lowest (224.6). Yesterday's weight was 231.8....sigh. I'm going to call today and see if I can get in to see Dr. K sometime next week. I STILL have not started yoga - but now that I have more time, I am just waiting until I can get in for a first timer's class (the location near me only does them on Sunday right now which hasn't worked for me).
Work - my position got eliminated AGAIN. My last day was about 3 weeks ago - Nov 17. I still get paid until mid-January, and have until the end of this month to apply for new positions, but it's not looking good. There have been very few positions in NY, and since I live in Manhattan and don't have a car, I'm kind of limited to the city office. The suburban ones are difficult to get to, and it would have to be a big pay increase to justify getting a car. Soo, that's kind of stressful. I do have some time, and I'm planning as if I won't find something with my current company, but it's not fun.
For the second time in 2 weeks, I woke up to sad news via Facebook. Last week, a comedian who I've known for as long as I've worked at the club, which is a VERY long time, passed away. He was pretty well known, and had been ill for a few weeks, but it's so sad. Last night, a member of a band that I spent quite a bit of time with passed away. I'm still not sure what happened, and the band hasn't been together for several years, but it's still so sad. Just more evidence to support my theory that 2011 sucks.
OK, I'm going to do my best to catch up on what blogs I can. Since I've been MIA for almost 2 months, I'm not sure I'll be able to do that. But I do promise to be a better blogger! <3 to all.
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Weekly Weigh In...Getting Back on Track
Well, it's nice to kno that even with me running around the country like a crazy person, I can still manage to lose weight. Or maybe that's the bronchitis talking...
This morning was 229, down from 232 last week. Still have a few pounds to go to get back to my low (and beyond!) but it's all going in the right direction.
I'm still feeling run down and crappy, but definitely better than I did for the past few days. I was supposed to go away this weekend for more tour madness, but decided to cancel (not because I was sick, I actually cancelled before I left for the cruise - but it works out anyway). Hopefully I have a relaxing weekend and get myself recharged and raring to go for next week, when it all starts up again.
As much as I love running around and seeing my friends, and of course, the music....I am so ready for it to be November, where all I have to worry about is finding another job.
Ahh! Hope everyone is well....love to you all!!!
This morning was 229, down from 232 last week. Still have a few pounds to go to get back to my low (and beyond!) but it's all going in the right direction.
I'm still feeling run down and crappy, but definitely better than I did for the past few days. I was supposed to go away this weekend for more tour madness, but decided to cancel (not because I was sick, I actually cancelled before I left for the cruise - but it works out anyway). Hopefully I have a relaxing weekend and get myself recharged and raring to go for next week, when it all starts up again.
As much as I love running around and seeing my friends, and of course, the music....I am so ready for it to be November, where all I have to worry about is finding another job.
Ahh! Hope everyone is well....love to you all!!!
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
What a Few Weeks...!
This will have to be a fast one, bc I am caught in the middle of a whirlwind...I think I am going to go ahead and do "bullets" here...
*Chicago was amazing and inspirational. I am so so so happy I went. I met some really amazing ladies, and had a blast. The planners did such an amazing job that I am blown away by them! The swag bags were awesome, and I am still enjoying all of the goodies in there. I'm definitely going to pick up some of the protein bars - haven't tried the shakes yet but I am getting there!
*Weigh in last week was 232. Very slightly up from the week before, but since I wasn't actively trying to lose anything, then I'll take it. I did a quick check in weight today, and it was 229.4. Back in the right direction.
*I went away this weekend to see my fave musician kick off his current tour. A lot of the people I saw haven't seen me since long before surgery, and I got some AMAZING reactions. I have to say, I felt super hot all weekend with all of the attention I was getting. (And we don't need to mention that I think my new jeans may have given my bruises on my hip, do we? Looking hot is all that matters...)
*Over the course of the weekend, I danced for about 8 hours total in high heel boots. This would have been an impossibility in any other lifetime. While my toes are still a little numb, and my right calf is a little sore, I am chalking it up to a great leg workout haha.
*Unfortunately, I fell into old habits and didn't take any pics of myself all weekend. Which is a shame, bc as I mentioned, I looked goooooooooooooooood.
Hope everyone is doing great - I'm uber busy right now but I am trying to keep up!
*Chicago was amazing and inspirational. I am so so so happy I went. I met some really amazing ladies, and had a blast. The planners did such an amazing job that I am blown away by them! The swag bags were awesome, and I am still enjoying all of the goodies in there. I'm definitely going to pick up some of the protein bars - haven't tried the shakes yet but I am getting there!
*Weigh in last week was 232. Very slightly up from the week before, but since I wasn't actively trying to lose anything, then I'll take it. I did a quick check in weight today, and it was 229.4. Back in the right direction.
*I went away this weekend to see my fave musician kick off his current tour. A lot of the people I saw haven't seen me since long before surgery, and I got some AMAZING reactions. I have to say, I felt super hot all weekend with all of the attention I was getting. (And we don't need to mention that I think my new jeans may have given my bruises on my hip, do we? Looking hot is all that matters...)
*Over the course of the weekend, I danced for about 8 hours total in high heel boots. This would have been an impossibility in any other lifetime. While my toes are still a little numb, and my right calf is a little sore, I am chalking it up to a great leg workout haha.
*Unfortunately, I fell into old habits and didn't take any pics of myself all weekend. Which is a shame, bc as I mentioned, I looked goooooooooooooooood.
Hope everyone is doing great - I'm uber busy right now but I am trying to keep up!
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
What The...I LOST?!
So after I posted this morning...I weighed myself. Result was 233.8. Considering the last weight I remember seeing before I left was around 237-238 (not really sure becuase it was too depressing), that means not only did I not gain like a crazy person on the cruise, I SOMEHOW LOST WEIGHT. On a 9 day cruise to the Mediterranean where I took every possible opportunity to put food in my mouth. Huh. While I credit the walking, that's still pretty amazing...
I had my esophagram this morning, but won't see Dr. K until October 12 for my official one year follow up (which btw, I didn't even realize when it passed because I was away...nice). I then saw G for a fill...and he left things mostly up to me. If you remember, I was unfilled due to tightness down from 7.7cc to 7.0cc at the end of August. I then cancelled my planned unfill before the cruise because I thought I was loose enough. I decided to get .4 put back in today, and then another .3 or .4 in 2 weeks when I see Dr. K.
While I'm happy that I've lost 40 lbs this year...I know it could be more. I rely on the band way too much...I need to start taking more responsibility for my loss/journey/all that hooey. That's the fancy way of saying I need to DO WORK. So...that's what I plan to do over the next....oh, well, until I am done doing work I guess...then it's just a different type of work.
I am so so so excited about Chicago. I am going to do the majority of my packing tonight, since my suitcases are already out (and will be for the next few weeks!).
I will leave you with some NSV's from the cruise:
- regular size towels now fit around me no problem. Woo!
- I was able to walk miles and miles every day and get normal person tired, not fat person tired.
- I wore my bathing suit on the ship, and was more bothered by the fact that it's too big on my chest than the fact that I was wearing a bahting suit in public.
- While pickins' for cute guys to flirt with on the ship were SLIM, I got more male attention than my tiny athletic friend. Not trying to compete, but it always feels nice to be the one they're looking at and flirting with.
I had my esophagram this morning, but won't see Dr. K until October 12 for my official one year follow up (which btw, I didn't even realize when it passed because I was away...nice). I then saw G for a fill...and he left things mostly up to me. If you remember, I was unfilled due to tightness down from 7.7cc to 7.0cc at the end of August. I then cancelled my planned unfill before the cruise because I thought I was loose enough. I decided to get .4 put back in today, and then another .3 or .4 in 2 weeks when I see Dr. K.
While I'm happy that I've lost 40 lbs this year...I know it could be more. I rely on the band way too much...I need to start taking more responsibility for my loss/journey/all that hooey. That's the fancy way of saying I need to DO WORK. So...that's what I plan to do over the next....oh, well, until I am done doing work I guess...then it's just a different type of work.
I am so so so excited about Chicago. I am going to do the majority of my packing tonight, since my suitcases are already out (and will be for the next few weeks!).
I will leave you with some NSV's from the cruise:
- regular size towels now fit around me no problem. Woo!
- I was able to walk miles and miles every day and get normal person tired, not fat person tired.
- I wore my bathing suit on the ship, and was more bothered by the fact that it's too big on my chest than the fact that I was wearing a bahting suit in public.
- While pickins' for cute guys to flirt with on the ship were SLIM, I got more male attention than my tiny athletic friend. Not trying to compete, but it always feels nice to be the one they're looking at and flirting with.
I'm Baaaaaa-accck!
Hello my loveler-ly BOOBa-loobas!
I got back from my cruise yesterday afternoon and my mama was kind enough to pick me up. I decided to take advantage of that, and went to her house to do all of my laundry so I could get all unpacked, since I have another trip to pack for right away, whee!
I went to bed pretty early, since I had been up for the last 24 hours. I'm now wide awake at the un-Godly hour of 5:30am. It's not really jetlag, I am lucky in that regard, just my internal clock is a little off.
I had a wonderful time on the cruise...I did not go get another unfill beforehand, and maybe I should have, but I made it through. I did get stuck a lot, but it was mostly user error. Sometimes it was eating too early, or too much in the day, but nothing ever too bad. And thankfully, there are bathrooms everywhere.
I am going to weigh myself in a little while, to assess the damage, and see how much I need to do to get my butt back on track. Thankfully we walked soooo much every day, miles and miles, which definitely helped counteract the massive amounts of food I ate. I go in for my 1 year esophagram and a fill this morning, and plan to spend the week on liquids until I leave for Chicago.
I'll be back later with more...and hopefully with some pics...and hopefully less rambling...
I got back from my cruise yesterday afternoon and my mama was kind enough to pick me up. I decided to take advantage of that, and went to her house to do all of my laundry so I could get all unpacked, since I have another trip to pack for right away, whee!
I went to bed pretty early, since I had been up for the last 24 hours. I'm now wide awake at the un-Godly hour of 5:30am. It's not really jetlag, I am lucky in that regard, just my internal clock is a little off.
I had a wonderful time on the cruise...I did not go get another unfill beforehand, and maybe I should have, but I made it through. I did get stuck a lot, but it was mostly user error. Sometimes it was eating too early, or too much in the day, but nothing ever too bad. And thankfully, there are bathrooms everywhere.
I am going to weigh myself in a little while, to assess the damage, and see how much I need to do to get my butt back on track. Thankfully we walked soooo much every day, miles and miles, which definitely helped counteract the massive amounts of food I ate. I go in for my 1 year esophagram and a fill this morning, and plan to spend the week on liquids until I leave for Chicago.
I'll be back later with more...and hopefully with some pics...and hopefully less rambling...
Thursday, September 15, 2011
I Have Not Forsaken You!!!
I know I have been totally MIA for the past few weeks....and I am sooo excited about Chicago...just been dealing with some personal friendship stuff, AND GETTING READY FOR MY CRUISE!
Which, I am sitting in the Toronto airport, enjoying their free wi-fi and very strong bloody marys outside my gate, waiting for my connection to Barcelona.
I was so excited I forgot to weight myself this morning. It's ok, it would have been up anyway. I can eat like a psycho. Which I plan to do for the entire cruise.
Then I come back to a fill immediately after.
Miss you ladies (I don't think I will ever catch up, so I am going to start fresh when I come back), and can't wait to see you all in Chi-town!!!!
Which, I am sitting in the Toronto airport, enjoying their free wi-fi and very strong bloody marys outside my gate, waiting for my connection to Barcelona.
I was so excited I forgot to weight myself this morning. It's ok, it would have been up anyway. I can eat like a psycho. Which I plan to do for the entire cruise.
Then I come back to a fill immediately after.
Miss you ladies (I don't think I will ever catch up, so I am going to start fresh when I come back), and can't wait to see you all in Chi-town!!!!
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